seems like years since i've updated cause i'm not allowed to use the com, courtesy of my brother. so many things have happened and i dont know where to start and i'm so lazy to type.i've finally found a motivation to go to school, but hey lets not make guesses.
i realised it kinda hurts when the people close to you GET hurt and you can't do anything to help. oh man the feeling really sucks.

i need to let go.

when a particular song
reminds you of a particular someone
its the last thing i need
and it keeps replaying in my head

i'm beginning to get irritated
when i didnt hope for it this way
could things have gotten better?
or did i take the wrong step.

starting to question
was it all a scam
wanting to find the long lost passion

another time i dreamt of you
and woke up crying
pretty weird scenario
its been a while

everytime it gets worse
everytime you fail to realise
everytime its all back to square one

everytime i look at you
i fall deeper in
i feel afraid now.
my self esteem's brought dOwn
to a zero
things wouldnt n would NEVER happen
its all my imagination
and wishful thinking

friends around seem to
be leaving me day by day
i NEED them back


things would have been way
different with you
by my side

i've always thought that words could conquer
almost everything.

i've always thought that once
a mistake is made
it is unlikely to commit the same one again.

i've always thought that friends
would be there for u no matter what.

i've always thought that things
would always turn out for the better.

but as the nightmare begins
i'm starting to lose faith
all i find is a door closed
but don't take me for real
like you always do.

sometimes i even wonder if all this is true
if i'll ever get through it
or will history repeat itself for the second time
i anticipate
but i convince myself further
yet i dread it happening

and it gets so unfair when you know
things aren't the way they are SUPPOSED to be
i NEED entertainment

i dont even wanna look into your eyes

it was supposed to be a great day ahead
met eling at airport to buy lunch (romantic)
went simyee house to watch VCD
when everyone was blaming me
for not telling them the ending for HIDE N SEEK
during the show
ate dinner at katong
KATONG LAKSA!
but you just had to ruin it
i wonder if you EVER bother to listen to me
i need a shoulder to cry on

came across this song while i was sitting in the car

Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself..
By hurting you

hurt-by Christina Aguilera


went compass with eling today
went swimming with mother
did op slides
did I and R
oh gosh i hate PW
and my shoulders are aching real bad now
the weather is freaking hot and
i'm freaking pissed with you
and i promise not to ignore sharissa again
maybe..

dazzalyn decruz

{anGela}
{amelia}
{banu}
{ben Chew}
{benedict}
{berNIce}
{charlene}
{cindy}
{clifford}
{eLing}
{grace}
{haris}
{heMMa}
{jacoB}
{joyce}
{larrE}
{malcOlm}
{meixin}
{menghow}
{panGyu}
{peishi}
{rashida}
{sarah}
{sharissa}
{shiqi}
{sim yee}
{sophiE :)}
{zhirong}
{Zul}

>EXITOLOGY

Age 17
1st april 1989
Anglican High School
Meridian Junior College
dazzledolphin@hotmail.com

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